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My Triumph was Taken out Thursday night.

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#1 ·
Hi all,
My poor Triumph was laid to rest.
Unfortunately I was taken out on Thursday evening in Tottenham, London about 10PM.
My beautiful black Triumph Sprint ST 955i, obsessevely taken care of, secretly more on ocassion than the better half, has been fataly wounded.
It happened right outside Tottenham police station.
Spent last three days in hospital, i'll save the drama but I have walked away with no serious or lasting injuries.
Still waiting to get all this sorted out.

I don't know how or where he hit me on the bike and i still haven't seen the bike or what i'm told by a police officer is left of the bike.
He makes out the bike is about half it's original size.

I have no recollection what-so-ever of the collision and lost a lot of hours so only able to listen to what others have said in the last few days.

I'm so gutted, now I need to start again to build a custom bike to my little quirks of comfort.
 
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#286 ·
Stealth,

You are doing incredibly well at all this. Thank you for continuing to post and keep us all involved.

Just catching up on the last few pages - whew! - quite a lot has happened recently. Your new place with the garden sounds terrific. Bulbs and pampas grass -- reminds me of my in-laws' farm in Scotland. :)

Also sounds like your step son is the perfect mix of honest and caring - just what you need!

As others have said -- be patient and keep at it, even if you don't see the improvements, we do, and more will come. It will be slow, maddeningly so, but progress will come.

On a minor note, I can say that Occupational Therapists can do seemingly miraculous things. My personal experiences with them have all been positive. I do hope you have a good one.

Cheers.
 
#288 ·
Just catching up on the last few pages - whew! - quite a lot has happened recently. Your new place with the garden sounds terrific. Bulbs and pampas grass -- reminds me of my in-laws' farm in Scotland. :)
Thanks 9990, This is the original farm house for the fields around here so was built to withstand the darn gusts of 40mph and strong winds i've had the last two days which died down at last.
Weeding was perfect as was gardening.
Trust me all, try gardening in strong winds, imagine all the dead and decaying leaves and tufts of grass, and everything left over from previous fall/winter, as soon as you move it the wind takes it for miles:)
It's all good compost for the hedges, trees and ditches around me so i'm doing something good for mother nature by giving back to her what she dumped in my garden before i moved in:D

The farmer came to see me a few days back and had a lovely old rifle in hand.
A pump action .22 winchester which he uses to scare the crows when he sows wheat as crows as i now know will dig down with there beaks to the depth of the seed being planted by farmers. plus there overall size compared to other birds is bigger so more powerful. All other birds mainly skim the surface so do less damage to the crop.
He and his wife have the fields directly around the house so i get to see the entire farming seasons and crops. This might be boring to some, but never took much interest in crop farming before, so no harm in at least learning about it.
 
#289 ·
Re: lost money.

In the US and several other countries, if currency is damaged too bad to spend, but the serial numbers of the bills can be determined, they can be replaced. Is that true in the UK? Or was it stolen?

Glad you are no worse hurt. Sorry about your bike.
 
#290 ·
I believe it's the same here, it will be replaced no problem.

i have only partial memory of events happening since the accident so i have to constantly go back to things i've said or written to remind myself about it so you picked a very good question and gave me some challange to find reference to money lost or stolen.

I see i had money on the night of the accident disappear.
This will be billed to the third party as will every cost i've incurred since this.
 
#291 ·
why a kidney stone?

The night of my last post, woke up about 2.30am in severe pain in my rear right back right through to my front. Like a burning poker had been inserted through my side.
Thought i only needed the toilet but couldn't get out of bed.
I was soaking in sweat and gritting my teeth.
I got up and waited until 8.30am before i woke up Jake to tell him i'm in trouble inside and i don't know why.
I passed blood in my urine and knew something was not right but didn't know what.
Phoned a doctor who put Jake through to a doctor at a hospital who sent an ambulance post hast.
10 mins from the phone call until i was pumped full of morphine and on route to hospital.

I developed a kidney stone and crystals which hurt like hell to be honest.

Nothing in the world was going to prepare me for what i was about to endure on pain threshold.
less than 24 hours after being admitted i passed the stone which all i'll say is look it up on the net to see where you pass it as i always thought they were cut out or passed through the rear.:eek:

back home yesterday and now resting.

From the moment i arrived at the hospital, in Boston, lincolnshire, the entire team who help me were on hand from beginning to end.
as was my other half from her hospital in Cambridge, who was phoning boston to see what was happening and over seeing it all happening.
I was escorted from the ward to an awaiting lift straight back to my house and escorted right into my bedroom.
Now how is this for service:)

I fell over twice in hospital as a couple of nurses never fully knew about my motorbike accident and thought it was only kidney stones i was in for but i forgave them when they were picking me up from the floor.
And when getting from the wheelchair to the CT scan machine again i thought i'd be fine and went for it.
I got on the scan unit okay with a bit of help from the scan people but when it was over i reached out to grab the wheelchair and it went pear -shaped. So some lovely bruises to remind myself i'm still crap at using my leg and arm properly.:)

Apart from this i'm fine this end and have been ordered to relax even if i have to be knocked out to do it.:p

Now you have to see the funny side of all this, a kidney stone, just to remind me what real pain is like once again right in the middle of all this.
 
#292 ·
I actually can't stop thinking about how all the nurses and doctors and emergency crews at hospitals just do all this on a daily basis and take it in there stride to make sure you are fine. I recommend the bostonian ward at Boston hospital if you need to go to hospital for anything. I'm just sorry i was not able to flist because of the pain as some of the nurses and even my doctor were stunning.
This is sexist probably but only saying something i observed.:rolleyes:
 
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#293 ·
If you had kept the stone you could have set it in a ring. Every time a little pain bothers you, just look at the ring and remember what real pain was like. Our neighbor lady has a gall stone polished in a ring. She explained the theory to me.
 
#301 ·
Stealth. Where to begin? Just read your story from start to finish.
I'm humbled to read the crap you've been through and yet somehow you've remained positive. You're an inspiration for all of us who like to complain about our little troubles.
I just wanted to wish you the best of luck for the future both physically and financially.


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#304 ·
now the biggest test of all has happened in all this but i should be able to handle it i hope.

Unfortunately the damage to my frontal lobes is causing trouble as in it is shuting down and i can't stop it happening.
I'm not annoyed, just scared to be honest.
Somehow i don't think i've been given the full picture of what is happening or what is wrong.
I'm already having to be constantly prompted to do basic things in life which is only tiring really.
Now i have to contend with my memories and recall giving up.
Daily lately i've been noticing i can't recall or access information which i need.
I have prompt sheets in front of me, dairies of dates and appointments etc but somehow my injury is saying it has had enough and is shuting down. At least in a sense it is giving me warnings.
The catastrophic brain injury team are just taking it as part of course but how do i make them understand this is really hard what is happening.
I had to be prompted on what jobs i did before the accident.
I had to phone my old boss to ask him what i did for his company.
This has always been a fear with-in me as somehow since they spotted the brain injury i knew something was really wrong but can't tell you in words. just a feeling i have had for a while.
I have been told not to worry about it, it's only part of the brain injury. These people deal with this kind of trauma every day with-in there patients but I don't think they can actually fully understand what it is like to lose you memory.

For a bit it has been slowly getting harder to recall stuff and now everything from the accident till today is getting lost.
I have the team helping me to recall and retrieve what i can but it's a loosing battle and they know this and no-one told me anything until it started happening.
They said a lot of different things can happen and they can only help to deal with them as it happens.
Unfortunately with a brain injury you can lose ability and memory is all they say and they will help me get through it.

I am wondering if these people are holding back on me what is happening to save my fear or something as they seem to take it in there stride and are not shocked or surprised and only gave me reassurance it will be okay.

I can only see one way it will be okay, and this is to let it happen.
I'm gutted as it is not like something getting wiped off a board so you don't know it was there, I know something was there sometimes and it's hard knowing this as all i get are empty bits where i cannot recall things or events, like i'm staring into space and beyond. On ocassion i can't even remember an event or meeting etc even when the person or thing is in front of me.

I'm gutted as it can't be helped so i will do my best to get on with it but at present i'm hurting inside.

I tried so hard to get over this but i keep getting held back by my own mind doing things i can't control.
I can not even recall a single persons name in here since i started this thread without looking but this never bothered me until now i suppose.

Are there any brain people reading this as in what the blazes is happening to me and what can i do to help myself with it?

At present i've got people who look at everything i do from when i get up till i go to sleep or not.
My house looks like it has suddenly been wrapped in cotton wool.
I fell a couple of times and over reaction again, i'm unsteady on my feet and need help is what i get.
You can imagine what they have and are doing to my new home.
It's going to look like a bloody padded cell if i let them do what they want.

I am learning to deal with the constant prompting to do tasks without a mental block happening but as fast as i'm learning to redo basic things it is annoying what is happening behind me in the sense of losing memories from now going back to the accident.

I don't know how to put this into words, but i don't or can't judge what a year is or how long.
I know we have seven days in a week, but what does it matter if it is Tuesday or Friday, the world wouldn't stop would it?

Sorry all reading this, I might be going over what I have said already.
Just carry on reading and i'll keep posting as now it has become something i can hopefully hold onto in my mind and has not confused me too much. Only it takes sometimes hours to write this out but believe me when i say i think i have the time to do it.

The bottom line of this accident has to be now, i can't have any more done to me or happen to me so it is time I guess to let go for a while and let the ones around me take over as they have been trying to take control for some time but i've refused point blank on some things.

I'm not admitting defeat, far from it, i just need to step back for a while and see where this takes me as at present i'm going round in circles and so stressed out and confused at times with it all.
The other half is hurting very much as is the lad and he is scared of what is happening with me and is finding it very hard.
he finds it hard with some things we even did together last year which are not even in my memory, or even a scrap of something to do with it. He will constantly go over the entire scenario, scenery, doings, day, weather etc, and he is so frustrated and wound up that i am unable to recall a single thing he is talking about.

I only know this but i can't explain or imagine what he must be going though inside since this accident happened.
He has had to move back home to his mums for now as the care team have to be with me for what has turned out full time simply to help me get through a whole day without injury or harm.
I get a couple of hours a day to myself but this is all they will let me have and this is going to end up nil, i can see it coming.

On good things, the weather has got very good, i've got doors open all over and not freezing. The wind never seems to go away much but this is great for blowing my garden free of any crap.
I only have grass cuttings and i don't have to use the grass box as the wind takes the actual cut immediately most days.:D
i get daily gusts of between i'd say 20-40 mph at some point in the day since when-ever i moved in here.
All i will say is my house is actually in the middle of miles and miles of complete flat farm land as far as the eye can see with no shelter or wind breaks or hills or valleys for protection. but not only me, all the houses and farms in the area will suffer the same. I'm near Spalding in lincolnshire and twice now i have had large numbers of group rides pass the house. Every type of bike.

I have a motorbike shop only 5 miles away, in the middle of no-where, but it is a main honda dealership for moto-cross which i thought, yes, in this area, they will have large fields ideal for people thinking they are in a plane or helicopter rather than a moto-crosser.

Another good thing, the owner of the house, the farmer who owns all the fields around has been round a lot as i'm still able to use part of my mind so we have good chats and he knows if i get lost or stuck, he just starts a new topic and off we go.
He has said i can stay here as long as i want and is happy i like the house so much.
So the good things out-weigh the bad at present, i'm just so lost at times with what is going on and what is happening as it never seems to stay the same.
My head will do what-ever it is doing with or with-out my help so it may sound a bit weird, but i'm going to let it happen and take it from there.
I have the physiotherapists starting soon, five days a week, maybe next week or something.
I have transport sorted out from next week also.
I have two full time carers who deal with brain injury and i have a beautiful posh, privatley educated girl as my occupational therapist who is on a different planet to living from us but she is so caring and understanding it is nice.
I've just noticed something, my entire care people are all women.
Not a single male in them, now if they ever get to gether at once on me i will have to get very far away.
I have 6 or 7 in the team and all are female.:rolleyes:
 
#305 ·
I can't even begin to imagine what you're experiencing, all I can say is that I know everyone is willing you to pull through.

It sounds as though you have good people looking after you, and that you're in a good place in your new home. Keep writing, I hope it helps you to make sense of what is happening, and that the support from the good people on here helps to keep you strong.

All the best.
Alex.
 
#308 ·
All the best Stealth, stay strong


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Stealth, I see that your wisdom is intact and fully functioning.
Cheers,
Thanks all, lets say it is a work in progress.
ruger, thanks for that, but i pinched the writing from my sheet of prompts written by the woman in charge of me.

On a good note again, you should see the care team in place, it's like i'm being treated like roayalty.
The aother half is okay considering what she is going through and i know this is hard on her but she puts on a brave face and helps me stay positive.

A lot of my people from the past find it hard and weird to be with me and i understand why, as they remember the old me and find it hard i imagine to look at me and not see a physical difference much but they know i have problems up top.
I know people deal with things differently but i can't explain to them what is going on with me because i don't know.

I have a large mole infestation and i love all animals but i had to get rid of them and none of the ladies around me would take them in a car to let go again so i've changed traps to scissor and had to put them in the ground.
I've had over 300 bulbs alone ruined and entire rows of bulbs and seeds destroyed in the time i've moved here till now.

I have loads of different kind of game and birds and they are so cool, i only wish they would get a taste for moles and save me the job.
I'm watching a blue-tit making it's nest along with ravens and it is so cool to see them collecting nesting material.
I'm having a good day where i am doing gardening and nothing else i hope.
Thanks all for the kind words.
 
#311 ·
Thanks FabMumSuze.
very hard this end just now.
The third party have lied three times about what happened at the accident and his insurers are doing nothing about it.
I am not having a very good time with my own side and now the accident is shown the driver in the car to be at fault the third party are now trying to say I have to take some of the blame.
The police report shows he was at fault but yet no-one on my side seem to care.
It's all become a bogged down mess to be honest.
The third party now claim i was speeding.

I'll get back to you all soon but i'm at the stage of telling the whole lot to get out of my life as this is sending me round the bend to be honest.

I'm no further on with the case than i did myself at the beginning of all this.
I can see me having to fight this on my own because to be honest all solicitors are in a big pool of helping each other.
This is what i see and how i feel.

I have to prove every job i had since i left school back in 1981.
Every accident i ever had, everything i ever had done since a child is now in my face. Every certificate and college and uni is been sent letters to get them to state i was there.
All my certificates including my degrees are been seen as rubbish by the third party.

I told my solicitors to get the finger out and fight for me as at present i don't see this and a heap of crap coming my way.
Now i'm wondering again if this next lot are incapable of going against the big boys.
LV in the UK is the largest insurers here and used by the government so has politicians in it's back pocket.

I hurt my left leg in the forestry back in 1980's and now the third party are refusung to pay out on my smashed lower leg.
seriously i'm at the stage where i want to hurt someone real bad and it's the moron from LV insurance who is laughing at me for his driver doing this to me with such a smug grin on his face.
I have heard nothing of the third party,
 
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#312 ·
You are alive to write of your anger sir. They did not nor can not take your dignity away. Things may well seem slow or even going back a step or two but from my out side view you have come a very long way. I can not begin to feel what you feel, I never will have the concerns you have of your future. But when you first wrote of being so badly hurt your only thought was of that very moment you remembered how to write.
Vent out the anger and rejoice that you can. Keep living and thank you so for sharing. Respectfully Hap
 
#314 ·
Thanks Hap, sorry if some days I seem down but this is what i feel at the time when I write on here.
I've been in talks with my solicitors for two days now and have just finished with what I want and how they proceed.
I see a way forward at last and pushed my solicitors to see what they can take or will run from.
I am impressed. They took it on the chin and now realise this is a fight for everything they have trained for and believe in to be right at all costs beyond what clever twisting of interpretations of the english language they or the third party can come up with.
I wanted to see if they run and cowl at fear and the unknown or if the pair have the guts to stand up and fight for what is right.
This is why i got rid of the useless bunch called Minster Law and if anyone on here just googles the name you are in for a showcase of horror stories.
The usual, there website is a glowing recommendation to there work and ethos but then under the web name all you get are entire websites who have been near this company and are still paying the costs today.

They have got in touch with there crash scene investigator immediately and he is on-board as of next Tuesday.
The damage to my body from little accidents through my life is also been handed to medical experts on my side to prove that any previous injury or damage were and still are nothing to do or even a contributing factor of what happened to me on the night in question.
I also told then how much i expect and at first they said no way, yet now they seem to aggree that this goes beyond a little bit of money to settle this.
Plain and simple i told them the third party pay my entire life from the day of the accident until I can manage to support myself again.
Any less than this and i will be seeing them in front of the law society.

So it seems when i get angry, it helps me somehow see things in a clear light.
This is not right I know but all i haqve is anger that is keeping me going just now.
I hope when this is over the anger and rage is also over.
 
#316 ·
Okay, I can see my anger on here.
Not nice so will control this a bit better.
All is fine and will come alright, i just get wound up at times with it all.

My solicitors are also great, don't mind me bashing them.
They have most of the basis covered so it will work out.
It's hard yet for them as they only got this case a couple of months back so to be fair they have caught up quick and seem to let me pick what to do next and then they will do the legal bits.
The min the other side mentioned i must have been speeding after they were asked to admit liability my solicitors had started putting the crash scene investigation into place so this is great and they are on my side.
I've never had to allow others to speak for me on my behalf and i find it difficult that this is happening.

On another good note or 2.
My actual body damage is not so excruciating these days. I'm left with the shooting pains if i try to flex my left wrist or lift anything but for light movement it is possible.
4 to 5 /10 so this is good. Means i use words i can't seem to find in the dictionary less than i used to.
The nerve damage is no better but i'm learning to live with this and the frozen left shoulder is also beginning to show signs of wanting to play nicely again as in i have partial movement before I use funny words again.
The lower left leg is still numb in hit point and the left ankle the physio people reckon will be able to be manipulated better than it is so this is also good news.

rehabilitation is way harder than I ever thought and again I owe the world a sorry because i was always ultra-fit and strong and used to wonder why people can struggle to do certain things but i'm living it for myself now so a type of karma I guess.

I still can't count backwards properly from 100 by taking away 7 each time and still struggle to spell words backwards.
Well, to be honest, i can't do it yet. Some other weird things are still happening. Time also plays tricks with me and has caught me out a few times now.

I have full time care in place and all my fighting it seems to have been a mistake but i can't tell my care lady manager she was right again as i'm bowing to her and I know she is loving it.

Yes, i have a sense of humour returning but I have to be careful because I keep getting told i'm doing it to mask my depression and loss:eek:

Jake and lesley and myself are also a lot better lately and I don't feel like a burden so much having to rely on them for everything.

I met the physio girl and she was tiny and i thought how is she going to fix my body, folks i'm serious, this girl is like a little spanish doll(she is spanish) and looks so fragile.
It turns out she is a fish in water and does hydro-theropy were I guess i'm made to walk the plank.
Thank goodness I swam all my life and used to do free-style diving so she hopefully will not be able to take the mickey out of me too much.

I never thought about hydro-theropy but when they explained the state of my body is too bad to just go and walk up a mountain the water will take the strain while they try and drown me:eek:,(help me).

So sorry all, i was really annoyed again about what is happening and Lesley and others have taken charge again and put me right or at least set my mind at rest again for now.
 
#318 ·
Okay, I can see my anger on here.
Not nice so will control this a bit better.
....
So sorry all, i was really annoyed again about what is happening....
Hey Stealth,
I've been following your story and frankly I'm surprised you haven't expressed more anger with all the delays, foot draggin, etc. that has been going on. You've shown remarkable poise.

Hang in there, it sounds like things are starting to turn a corner for the best.
 
#319 ·
Hey Stealth,
I've been following your story and frankly I'm surprised you haven't expressed more anger with all the delays, foot draggin, etc. that has been going on. You've shown remarkable poise.

Hang in there, it sounds like things are starting to turn a corner for the best.
Thanks guys.
Took a long time to get things in place.
I'd say a corner has turned at last.
 
#320 ·
Hi all,
It has been a long time since my last post.
I'm sitting back at present, just doing light things about the place and in a far better place stress wise.
Mainly trying to get back to some sort of daily routine as it is still a bit messed up with clocks and times and days of the week.

I have at last accepted some of the damage I have, compared to last year when all this happened.

I have screwed up insides daily and some days I can hardly walk with-out having to sit down for ages.
Seems every time i do some gardening i am out for the next couple of days.
The walking for so long, a year now, has done some damage but it can be reversed so I am not too bothered about it.
I have carers 6 days out of 7 which did at first take some getting used to. It still is weird and always will be.
They had to put three separate carers in place because of the severe brain problems I am having.

I still fight it a bit with the carers and rehab people as I still reckon I’m able to do a lot more than they think is safe for me to be doing.

I’ve learnt to do all things in the few hours daily they are here so I can get an easy afternoon and evening.
This way the cooker will live for another day which is good.
I have had serious problems with smoke alarms downstairs as they annoy the crap out of me too often. They seem to wait till i head for the kitchen and pounce on me as soon as i just look at the cooker or toaster.

I have another person to see next week as the rehab brain people are still not happy with the amount of care i am getting as in they want to up the hours spread out on different times but this will freak me out and not give me enough time to myself or free time.

It all seems to be a balancing act of how much or how little I can handle as I still feel invaded with the amount of help that is around me.
It might sound strange to you reading this but I don’t have what is classed as a normal life style at present, or at least what my rehab people seem to think is normal, and if they are right I seriously have a long way to go with what they are saying.

Lesley and me and Jake are back to our old selves although they have changed towards me lately, but in a nice way.
They realise I have brain damage and don’t cause any stress or worry anymore which I do notice.
Jake fell off his motorbike a few weeks back on a corner and caused a few hundred pounds worth of damage.
He hurt his pride of course but is all right and thanked me for been so hard on him for what he was allowed to wear or not on the motorbike. His helmet was only two weeks old so he is gutted.
I knew he was going to lose it on a corner in the middle where the cars don’t go and you get the loose gravel and dust as I used to cringe when i saw him doing this on occasion.
He has learnt the best way by it happening as now for the rest of his life it is instilled.

I have some collection of wildlife all around the house, i’ll mention some of them.
I young deer,
1 monk jack.
1 peacock , (which I sort of pinched when i went walking one day. He followed me home when i fed it a bag of crisps and has been in my back garden or fields for some time now.
He can fly so I’m not bothered about him been lost and he seems to just do his own thing.
The two male pheasants are not happy as he tried it on with a female pheasant a few times.
1 female Kestrel.
1 PET crow, large male. He will actually now come and take food from my hand if I lay still for a while.
I have been photographing them but need a better lens which is on the list of needs urgently.
I’m down a country road off the beaten track which is only used by the people who live along it really, so wildlife is flourishing all around the house and fields.

I will post an update on what is happening with the whole case as in the solicitors and what stage it is all at.
 
#322 ·
Hi all,

I'm sitting back at present, just doing light things about the place and in a far better place stress wise.
Good to hear of some improvement stealth, esp. in the stress department.

Your place in the country sounds perfect for R&R. I don't know how I would deal with a similar type situation here in the urban sprawl of a large city, which can be depressing even on the best of days. Nature seems to help healing.
All the best to you and keep looking forward, bud.
Cheers,
-Rueger
 
#323 · (Edited)
Hi all,
it has been a while since i posted on here,
I take it you all know i've come to terms at last with what happened this end.
I am still no further with the insurance in all this and the third party still refuse to accept liability even though they now know it was their drivers fault.
I feel i'm being used to make money for both sides as this is going on forever.
I've been in hospital twice since last post.
I was given a tablet by doc that ate my stomach lining on contact so a few hours later I was pumped up with morphine and wisked off in an ambulance.
At first it was thought something inside had burst as was coughing blood and also out the oppisite end.
I would never have known a tablet could have this adverse affect it did on me.

Doc was sorry, but no-one was to know this could happen.
Took over a week to recover from this.

I fell down the stairs a couple of weeks ago and then had the good luck of two oak doors i've removed and proped up against the front door come crashing down on my back with the handle making sure it got me in the back.
I have to come down stairs backwards and I just lost my footing.
back and hips took the impact so again have been house bound and not able to get around much.

A lot better now and almost bearable pain-wise.
My carer was almost in tears as she was panicking, but just a little accident i told her and nothing she could have done would have stopped it happening.
Of course i got the usual from the brain injury team as in I should be in a bungalow.
Not happening and kicked this to touch as soon as it was mentioned.

The third party have handed the case to their solicitors and now it's just a joke to be honest.
I'm learning fast that all solicitors are interested in is the hours they put in on paper as this is how they get paid, to hell with the actual case or how it goes, they have nothing to lose and don't care what really happens.
My only beef is the third party pay for my rehabilitation and getting better but i've had to go to the state for help on this as the third party basically told my solicitors to get stuffed.

Something stinks big time in what i'm suffering but i'll get to the bottom of it one day.

On a good note, i'm going to try to get to the STILTON BIKE SHOW (Triumph) near Peterbourgh on the 17th this month.
I'm only a few miles away from it so will get one of my carers to take me over.
I should think some from this forum will be there so will maybe get a chance to meet some of you on the day.
This will be the first times since the accident i'll be able to shift a few pints:D
I'll leave it at this and going to search the forum to see if the forum has a section on the event.

I'll add that Lesley has gone out and got herself a brand new Bonny in metallic purple and white so is on her glory and loves the bike to bits.
She only got it last week so not able to see much of her just now
 
#327 ·
Hi FabMumSuze,

Sorry it has been such a long time since my last post.

I am doing very well and still hopeful of a good recovery even if others think differently. I am managing to get nearly 4 hours sleep on occasion so this is a god send.

Have started physio again on my ankle and leg and this will be the second week this week.
I have been trying what I was shown and told, and am a glutton for punishment, but it seems to be working as I have slight movement on one bit of my ankle. The nerves are damaged in some bits so no communication between them and my brain which means I can’t make the ankle/foot do certain movements but I knew this for some time now.
Not a case of me being too sore to do it, simply a case of the nerves not being present to let me do it or damaged somewhere where the nerve and muscle is meant to be to work that part.

I keep trying to say i’m fine but more and more keeps getting put in front of me through various care packages and rehabilitation people. I have a very large team behind me doing everything they possibly can to help in any way they see fit to help me get back to some sort of independent living.
I find all this very tiring at times but know it is all for the best so I let them all do what they think is best as long as it fits in with what I think is also best.
I have recently had the entire house fitted out with loads of little aids to help me get around safely as I’m still very unsteady on my feet.
I still get an immense shooting pain through my left heel, up the back of my leg and is so sharp and acute it will cause me to hit the deck with severe force as the leg seriously lets go with no warning. If this would stop happening i’d be well on the way to being able to walk properly again.

I have had to accept the damage to my left hand/wrist which is now permanent and unfixable with a lot of sorry,s from the various professionals and hospitals involved with this part of the damage. The muscle wastage is bad and the hand goes purple/blue with-out warning and I lose feeling and grip so will drop items if I was trying to hold them.

I am to be fitted with a monitoring device this Thursday where i push a button on the back of my hand if something bad happens or if my body receives a certain force, i.e if i fall over. It is linked to some company who monitor it and raise an alarm if something goes wrong and emergency services are called. I have more cuts and bruises these days than I ever got as a child and mainly all because the left leg will just decide to stop working and hit me with such pain I have no scream left in me. It’s the damage to my clothes that pisses me off as it always seems to be when I have a good pair of trousers on and never when in jeans or slacks for the garden which can get shredded.

I was tested again on the brain issues over the last few weeks and thought it was going fine until I failed again on the working memory and a few other cognitive issues. I.E The brain issues are no better than the beginning but I don’t feel bad or annoyed about this part as it does not really concern me, only others around me who seem to be more concerned than me so i’ll let them carry on as it saves me worrying about it.
I have had another brain scan, MRI and waiting to see if any difference or still just the same. I still need constant prompting as I still keep trying to burn the house down and the carers keep trying to stop me so it all works out very well.

I still can’t put on my socks or tie my shoes so this part is still very embarrassing and I do feel so ashamed of this but I can’t do anything about it. I have never worn a shirt since the accident and all clothes have to be easy slip on and off as basically only got one arm and hand to do it all so if I need a shirt to go to an appointment or something I have to ask for help to do this and again very embarrassing.
As to the progress of the case it took 18 months of sheer hell and pain for me to prove I never did anything wrong and as of a couple of weeks ago it is officially in writing the third party are to blame for the accident. This never boosted me or made me feel any better because deep down, somehow I knew I never did anything wrong on that fateful night.

This has turned out to be what my solicitors say is a very big case with severe life changing injuries but all I see is me pissed off as I keep trying to walk normally and it gives me so much grief and pain I get angry about it.
I am to attend a pain management clinic and meet with other people who have suffered brain damage as a result of an accident and am not sure how this will make me feel but anything is worth a try.
If i can get the bit of my memory that fails me working again then I think all else will be fine.
I still refuse to believe in some of what I’m told and still believe deep inside I will show a few people I can come back from what is slowly getting written off as permanent damage.
I do have a laugh with my carers as they all have their own ways of doing things which makes it fun for me really. If one will not do something for me because of danger or risk, the other ones will and I think they are realizing I’m getting my own way sometimes. They all help me with bills, medication, cooking, cleaning, washing, etc, and have all become a big part of my everyday life at present and for this i’m actually thankful, as in the beginning I was so against it and felt so useless.

I have some idea of where I will finish in all this but until then I will keep doing what i’m told as long as it fits in with what I want, so as you can see no stubbornness from me what-so-ever, or as my brain woman person manager says, i’m the most stubborn person she has had to deal with for years.:p
 
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Good to hear from you Stealth, as always best of luck..


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Stealthmode, I raise a glass to your continued persistence and stubbornness. :)
An inspiration for all of us. Keep working as hard as you can.


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+1 to all of the above. An inspiration no less.
Wow, so many of you on here have been watching this thread.
Thank-you all so much for your encouragement and kind words and very often words of wisdom and experience.

I am basically on some sort of mission just now, trying to interact and understand everything that is going on around me but still can't quite get it right or just simply get lost with trying to do too much.
I levelled out on the pain threshold recently as in the pain of the body parts does not hurt so much as somehow I have managed to block it out a lot of the time through the day.

I have had a massive crop (of 3 different types) of Plums, cooking apples, eating apples, blaeberries, raspberries and 3 different types of tomatoes.
The carers are loving it as daily they are taking carrier-bag full’s of fruit home for their people at their end. On top of this a few ½ hundred weight sacks of potatoes were dropped off from one farmer to me, as he said, they will see me through the winter.

I have trimmed back and opened up what was left of an over-grown and neglected orchid. 50 years or so it was planted out by the then owners of this farm house but the last few years it has been left to go wild as previous tenants never seemed to do any gardening. It will be another year or so before I get all trees producing properly but i managed to get most of them to produce nice clean fruit which is still going on just now. I still have eating apples and three massive cooking apple trees still swelling their fruit.
On the wildlife side, which has honestly helped me all through summer I have had nearly every bird in Britain visit me through-out the year. My latest birds to join the flock are a pair of Tawny owls which are so vocal they make some nights here so wonderful. I have to invest in some infra-red video and beams for the camera as the wild-life here at night is immense. The pair come right up to my back door and use the apple tree nearest the house to hoot through the night, saying this is their territory so all others leave. They are nesting in a large nest box in a tree which is a mini nature reserve set-up by the next house and land closest to me by a couple who are part of the RSPB in this area. They keep me right with the bird types and also help me with firewood and heavy lifting if needed. It takes a phone-call to raise them so I have some space this end which is great.

I am in a better place accident wise and am beginning to engage again with things around me, even if I still wander off and not know what i was in the middle of, but my carers seem to take it in their stride and never tell me off or tie me down till I finish something. They have threatened to put a bloody cow bell on me as sometimes they turn around and i’m gone.
I still can’t get the right day or month but I know the year now, 2013 and how old I am and the year I was born most days.

Time is still a thing I have serious issues with as somehow clocks have gone wonky around here as they go so fast I can’t keep track of them sometimes. I’m to be fitted with a device that tells me when to take tablets, when to cook, when to try to go to bed, and other little things so will see how this pans out.

Thanks all for following me through this and wait until the day I get back on my bike and know what is going on around me as I think this is still a definite goal in all this.:)
 
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